January 2012
70 posts
i miss new york too soon too much. but then i haven’t really travelled anywhere far enough—i guess to the other side of the Mississippi—for the past 3 or so years.
today i had the worst high ever. correction: the high itself was pretty good and so was my company. but i let myself go too much, enjoyed a few minutes of mindless indulgence, followed by hours of immense self-loathing and keen self-criticism. someone once said you can’t love anyone if you can’t even love yourself; i hope it’s not true because i’d like to be able to love.
잘못보이거나 무너지기는 쉽고, 잘보이고 잘 하려면 어렵다. 그만큼 노력이 많이 들어도 네거티브한건 쉽게 알아차리고, 좋은건 피드백 받기에 오래걸린다. 결국엔 그만큼 1) 인내심이 많다거나 2) 남들시선보다 스스로의 기준에 맞춰가는 사람이 성공하는듯
나도 빨리결혼하고 싶지만 반면에 결혼하면 더이상 어리광도 쓸데없는 땡깡도 못부릴것같고 책임감없이 살지못할것같아서 뭐라는거니?